"Our bodies know they belong;

it is our minds that

make our lives so homeless"

-John O' Donohoue

Yep. I dont belong anywhere. There I was all excited and full of energy to start. Then, she says "Just watch until I figure something out", "ok" I answered in small voice that almost sounded as a whisper. After one freaking hour... Im still there. Waiting. Feeling horribly humiliated and emberrased. Failure. Thats what I am. I dont belong anywhere. Just when I was ready to start again. Crack! somebody stomps on my intentions. No... I thought I belonged...I thought I was part of something... I thought I found my place. Wake up! my mind says, "you never belonged anywhere! never! remember sixth grade? remember first grade? Oh~! remember eveyrone that broke you heart! Dont repeat the same story again!" And here I am. Tears falling down my cheeks. Thinking how did the fudge did I agree to do this?! Im not coming back. I cant take it. Why does every time I tried to be part of something I get rrejected? Why do I feel rejected? Why does the story keep reapeting again and again?! Why do I feel like a complete failure?!