Im waiting for a message [draftt]

im waiting for a message
a text, an email
something something you want to say?

i dont care if its an omen
a crow or black cat
even a witch with a bad rant.

im waiting for a message
a cried, smoke, ??? [process not finished]

send me something so that i know.

I do not know where it went

I do not know where it went.
it stood aside and flew away.

i tried looking for it under the sky
the wimpy rocks and the last time...

it will come back
i told myself.

with resignation and
punched determinationn.

Wahhh...

ughh. i feel soo uncomfortable today.
you know. the days when you wake up && then something small happens
that changes your mood drasticlly.
i hate it,
right now i hate everthing. why? because the white shirt i wanted to wear doesnt fit me as it used to! ughh. ive kno ive gained weight butt i didnt know it wouldnt fit ;[
my mom today made me feel so fatt. she said.
"winy ! stop EATING the peanuts and raisins cos you have so many pimples already!!"
goshh, she didnt have to say it like that. she ruined my day.
my self steem is at it lowestt right now. LOWESTT.
i have to do something. i have a plan.

seven. twentyeight. ohnine

Im your everything, you said it once

am i oxygen or did you just lie?
am i your heart or did you get a transplant?
am i the one you cant live without?

when you whispered thru my ear and held my hand...
was it all an act?

the roses you gave me
are all dried and dead
now laying on my bed.

You said it meant love
the color red

Now they're brown
do they mean hate?

By Winy :)

Haha; last nightt wass... weirdd.

ha went to the carnival laghing my ass off with my friends [new ones]
haha; i wanna it to happen again ;)

im so sad. period.

ahhh! im so sad and depressed :(
i feel like i have no friends. like noboy cares about me anymore
idkk where all my firends went? i feel alone.
i cant wait to go to highschool and make new friendss :D
cos all my firends are going to different high school but we thought we could keep in touch but suddenly they idkk dont care anymore? idkk what happening. people that couldnt pass a day without sending me a message or texting me have stopped going it all of the sudden -__-
im like whoa. weeirdd! but now all i have leftt is to be stuck in this house going nowhere. til august 10th and then going to Vermont. which i thnk will be fun. i hope. lmao.
But theres like one month left after that. . .
idkk i just wanna go to school. most of my friends are moving aaway which is sad. i kinda wanna move too. i hope next year we move to utah *__*

BTW i received a reading packet from the school im going to.
nice! just what i needed. extra work for me :(
its not like ive been doing stuff but it just makes me sad to know i have to do school work.
ughh. the only things i look forward too is wednesdayss... cos i go to mutual.
&& sundayss cos at least i have friends at sunday school.
i look forward girlss camp. && high school.
i want time to fly. really fast so i dont have to be stuckk here all day. like i do everyday :(
i wish i could work. i mean i can but idk who would hire a fourteen year oldd.
lmao. and i even look younger than my age.

AGAIN; with the friend stuff.
ahhh! i feel like im gonna get depression.
i feel like theyre all out there doing fun stuff. while im here. being a couchh potato
they forgot about me. thyre over me. so fast and i thought it would last.
i need a new life. need firends. new fun. i cant wait til high school.

What Boredomm makes me do :(

The last dirty diaper ill see this summer

Today my sister is going back to Utah.
Yepp; after almost three weeks or was it two?
anywayss, so camila is leaving
Nobody really knows how much i ___
that baby.
Im just not that good with kids.
I barely have patience. Hearing myself say this makes me
thnk i wouldnt be a good kindargarden teacher

You know i hate when ppl offend you
and then they say i hope you dont get offended
why would you say that if you dont want that person to get offended?!
Its common sense ppl.
Dont say it if you dont wanna make that person feel badd

Museumms.

are awesomee ;]
tiki dolls too.
pictures comming soon.

Freeze it.

I miss school. I miss my friends. I miss going out. I miss laughs, stairs, orange juice from school, i miss school. I never thought I would but, I really do. I wishh I could back time in life and make it all lastt. I miss so many people. Especially friendss and ppl that were so closee to me. I miss all the good stuff school has to offer. Even those nonlearning lessons. Who make no sense. Yeahh...i miss everything.