campp!

some random camp pic; i dont feel like uploadin all of them :)

Brave New Post

hiee little outsiderss :)
Today ive been absorving a little bit of inspiration. inspirational poetry to be exact :)
My writing teacher once showed us videos of BRAVE NEW VOICES. a couple of series.
so this one is my favorite. This performance gives me chills throughtout my body :O
Just see it and please be mature about some words.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_t7UsbvF4qY

Im waiting for a message [draftt]

im waiting for a message
a text, an email
something something you want to say?

i dont care if its an omen
a crow or black cat
even a witch with a bad rant.

im waiting for a message
a cried, smoke, ??? [process not finished]

send me something so that i know.

I do not know where it went

I do not know where it went.
it stood aside and flew away.

i tried looking for it under the sky
the wimpy rocks and the last time...

it will come back
i told myself.

with resignation and
punched determinationn.

Wahhh...

ughh. i feel soo uncomfortable today.
you know. the days when you wake up && then something small happens
that changes your mood drasticlly.
i hate it,
right now i hate everthing. why? because the white shirt i wanted to wear doesnt fit me as it used to! ughh. ive kno ive gained weight butt i didnt know it wouldnt fit ;[
my mom today made me feel so fatt. she said.
"winy ! stop EATING the peanuts and raisins cos you have so many pimples already!!"
goshh, she didnt have to say it like that. she ruined my day.
my self steem is at it lowestt right now. LOWESTT.
i have to do something. i have a plan.

seven. twentyeight. ohnine

Im your everything, you said it once

am i oxygen or did you just lie?
am i your heart or did you get a transplant?
am i the one you cant live without?

when you whispered thru my ear and held my hand...
was it all an act?

the roses you gave me
are all dried and dead
now laying on my bed.

You said it meant love
the color red

Now they're brown
do they mean hate?

By Winy :)

Haha; last nightt wass... weirdd.

ha went to the carnival laghing my ass off with my friends [new ones]
haha; i wanna it to happen again ;)

im so sad. period.

ahhh! im so sad and depressed :(
i feel like i have no friends. like noboy cares about me anymore
idkk where all my firends went? i feel alone.
i cant wait to go to highschool and make new friendss :D
cos all my firends are going to different high school but we thought we could keep in touch but suddenly they idkk dont care anymore? idkk what happening. people that couldnt pass a day without sending me a message or texting me have stopped going it all of the sudden -__-
im like whoa. weeirdd! but now all i have leftt is to be stuck in this house going nowhere. til august 10th and then going to Vermont. which i thnk will be fun. i hope. lmao.
But theres like one month left after that. . .
idkk i just wanna go to school. most of my friends are moving aaway which is sad. i kinda wanna move too. i hope next year we move to utah *__*

BTW i received a reading packet from the school im going to.
nice! just what i needed. extra work for me :(
its not like ive been doing stuff but it just makes me sad to know i have to do school work.
ughh. the only things i look forward too is wednesdayss... cos i go to mutual.
&& sundayss cos at least i have friends at sunday school.
i look forward girlss camp. && high school.
i want time to fly. really fast so i dont have to be stuckk here all day. like i do everyday :(
i wish i could work. i mean i can but idk who would hire a fourteen year oldd.
lmao. and i even look younger than my age.

AGAIN; with the friend stuff.
ahhh! i feel like im gonna get depression.
i feel like theyre all out there doing fun stuff. while im here. being a couchh potato
they forgot about me. thyre over me. so fast and i thought it would last.
i need a new life. need firends. new fun. i cant wait til high school.

What Boredomm makes me do :(

The last dirty diaper ill see this summer

Today my sister is going back to Utah.
Yepp; after almost three weeks or was it two?
anywayss, so camila is leaving
Nobody really knows how much i ___
that baby.
Im just not that good with kids.
I barely have patience. Hearing myself say this makes me
thnk i wouldnt be a good kindargarden teacher

You know i hate when ppl offend you
and then they say i hope you dont get offended
why would you say that if you dont want that person to get offended?!
Its common sense ppl.
Dont say it if you dont wanna make that person feel badd

Museumms.

are awesomee ;]
tiki dolls too.
pictures comming soon.

Freeze it.

I miss school. I miss my friends. I miss going out. I miss laughs, stairs, orange juice from school, i miss school. I never thought I would but, I really do. I wishh I could back time in life and make it all lastt. I miss so many people. Especially friendss and ppl that were so closee to me. I miss all the good stuff school has to offer. Even those nonlearning lessons. Who make no sense. Yeahh...i miss everything.

Camilaa and diet coke.

Two things I love?

I love my little niece CAMILA <--- awesomeness !

and

Diet Cokee.

Yess. My sister is spending time with us here in CT

for two happy long weeks.

Which means I get to spend time with my newborn niece Camilaa!

I never thought I would love a baby like I love herr <3

Even tho as all babiess...

She burpss, and criess, and whiness a lot.

I still thinkk shes the cutest thing alive (:

Suckkyy SATURDAY

yesterdayy was soo sucky and horrible...thanks to big foot today is sundayy and just hadd so much chinese foodd... i feel stuffed. HAPPY FATHERSS DAY! to all fathers out there :D thats it. I guess.

A Hill? on a Holiday? noo...more like AWESOME!

Holy cow! Today was awesome terrific incredible ?!?! Yess... best day ever so far... HH was soo fun... did bunch of things...canoing, boating, swimming...like sixx times...tehehe. Im a fishiee addicted to waterr. I need to be able to survive. Wow! ate like tons of french fries... dancedd. I just had the funnest day! omg... im gonna miss lots of ppl :[

Where is everyone?

I have days like this one. You wonder where everyone went. Where. The park? The mall? but noo...it couldnt be! Its rainy outside. We should all be inside our houses... but they arent. This is weird. I am the only one inside my house? Or am I missing out? I dont know where everyone is...

water/water/water and some more water

I dont know what to say right now...im just trying to kill time. Ohhh yeappp im kinda fustrted cos my laptop doesnt wanna install adove 10. and i need it but ive tried eveyrthing...it wont work :[ eveyrthing! troubleshooting...comand compp and ebrything! i need it to listen to music and even youtube! i mean i need it...any help kelly?

Pleasee GET UP!

upss and downss...Up and then DOWNN! again...my modd is horrible...i hate it. i cant stand it. i cant stand myself...werrrd. im sad. somebody cheer me up?!

BEDTIME STORIESS? yes please.

AWESOME DAY.

NewYorkBubblesss

I can see it...i cannot touch it. Its so close but so far away. I wonder where it all i went. Who was it? who ripped it? i have too many questionss and not asnswerss. Who bleww them away? Why did you let it go? i shouldve kept them. Tight and secure and this little box. Little of joy that wil syncronizee with my life. I cant do it alone tho. Im scared. Im so scared that i cant show it. Somehoww i have to let go. I have to. Notice that im just alittle tiny girl lost. Notice i cant do it by myself. I need you help.

I tried to beat you but youre so hot that i melted :[

I wontt hessitate no more. it cannot wait. im yours. awww...ii love that song. if your wondering...its im yours by jason mraz...i think :] today was another great daay! thankss to my awesomee life...lmao noo it s not great or even close to what it should be but...its mine! and thats what it makes it matter. ohhh guess what! tehhe nobody knows i have a blog ;] tehhe. it my little dirty secret...and i hope you dont tell anyone.

Green Sunday !!

The pictures say it all. Right?!

Invisible flip flopss

Tehehe...todayy i got crsipy...i actually gott burned and dark...cos im a brown person so i dont burn i just get darker and tanned...even more darker than my usual color. So yepp today was the camp tag sale and it was like every single year...BORING! sat there the whole moring..tagging stuff and putting up signs...we didnt sell a lot of stufff...but we had pizza! from papa johnsss! lol I HEART PAPA JONHS :]...yepp so anywayss...life is good right noww...just bought the prettiest dress ever for my graduation...ssooo cute! its greenn and white from FOREVER 21.. i heart foreveer 21! soo cute it slike my second favorite store...cos my first chice is alwayss HOLLISTER <3

Rain washed away my mascara :]

Today...was an awesome day...what else could i say? it was rainy...ugh! i hate rainy days but this one...this one was special. So it was community service day && all i had to do was play BINGO! with little third graders...ohh one of them had a mowhack! isnt that awesome! i wanted to touch it so bad...but he was gonna think im was a weird eight grader...tehehe. Afterr that everything got boring i guess. Ohhh! i saw this little nasty fish in a fish tank...ewww...it looked like a cat that had slept with a ugly dog with ticks....that had anger issues. That little nasty fishh was giving me the angry look! or maybe his face was messed up. Thenn we had this tupid dance...all cliche and everything. Ohh! and a DJ that looked like the custodian...lol. I was laughing my ass off. I danced...a little. Of course i have to left feet! but that doesnt mean i cant move my hips! lol. I suckk at evrything plus there were worst dancers than me, that made mee happy :] I walked from school to my house...wet and disgusting b/c it was raining but i enjoyed it. It was happy rainy day! wichh doesnt happen often :] so i enjoyed it.

Metal leaves and a yellow flower

Im Writing this in school [Too Dramatic-]

Im feel so fustrated rightt now! So first I woke up really late and didnt even do my hair...in the morning...went straight to my bus stop [i thought i missed the bus] and guess what? the bus was late...not five minutes late...more like almost one hour late! It was raining so my hair got worse! and got steeped in water =[ no fun. Came to school and went to my locker...btw fisrt period is in the third floor so i had to crawl myself up thru six pair of stairs...and when i finally get there...i find out i have to get a late pass! so go back to the first floor...ask for a pass...btw the lady there...she is not nice at all! She stares at you like she wants you to suddenly cath on fire and leave so she can go back to reading People magazine. Got a late pass and dicovered everyone was at the librabry which is in the basement...yepp i did lots of exercise! My daily workout....So at the library we were supposed to go on thiswebsite and ive tried like three comuters but mine doesnt want to go on the internet...so i get out of the group circle and im forced to use this ugly dusty from back in the 80's computer who looks more like a tv. I feel tired, cold, fustrted, ugly, and dramatic. Although things like this can ruin your day...wait...what am i saying? this did ruin my day! Ughhhh i hate days like this...but somehow i dont want it to end! Weid huh? Idkk I think i might be creating too much drama, but im not a drama queen! No im not! I never was, and never will. Hopefully Ill stay out of the Dramaaa..

I used to be commander and chief

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! cant find it anywhere! where is it?? cant find my usb camera cable thingyy! UGH!! come one! appear!!! please dont tell me i lost it!!! It look fifteen days to receive it from china!!! [my sister ordered it] I need to find it...somehow...CHANGING THE SUBJECT...yesterday...came back from camp! yeppers, camp. it was awesomee. i did sooo many thingsss, im proud offff. i missed lots of people, but it was just really speciall. got bit by lots of bugggs .it doesnt matter tho. ohhh! news! guess what!?!? i bought my new bathing suit! so awesome and cool! cant wait to wear it! if you could see it but my stupid usb cable doesnt want to come out!!! what else? oh yeah...dont have school monday! yey! Memorial Day! whereelse? oh yea...i became an auntie! yepp! my sister gve birth and since then i feel forgotten. i mean i do love the baby and everything but there isnt a day they dont mention the baby! everysingle freaking day! Nobody cares about me anymore...but whateverssss...i doncare either so....whatevers! im so stunned...cant tell you why tho. thehehehe =D

What i didnt learn today on line paper

I learned you will never tell a big lie, but white little lies. I learned Im experiencing things I want to tell everyone. I learned everyone is secretly in love with spongebob. I learned im in toughest moment of my life. Maybe not. I learned decisions dont make more decisions. I learned life is never in the past but in the future. I learned somebody can break yout heart with one long stare. I learned thirty seconds do make a difference. I learned to hug. I learned to cry for something stupid. I learned to never say never. I learned sleeping bags arent supposed to be blue. I learned to dont eat chocolate in the bus. I learned i was something .Now im nothing. I learned people can forget you in one day. I learned to smile at babies. I learned to appreciate what you have, or at least love what you can appreciate. I learned a look can change your world. I learned boys should pull up their pants, so I dont see their undies. I learned you never buy pink underwear unless you are Barbie. I learned more in half an hour than i did in one whole day. Hope you learned something today.

Tell your boyfriend if he says hes got meat that im a vegeterian and i aint freakin scared of him!

Uhhh..One thing first...im a girl...so yea...the title is just a title people!!! [PROCRASTINATION] [find a dictionary if you dont know what it means, or better! google it] So...this is the only place i can whine and trust nobody will make fun of my pain. Whats up?! ohh me?! well...lets see...im pretty confused...SHOCKER! lmaoo i know...im always confused...so yea..im not telling you why b/c youll snitch and tell my sister! and then my sister will tell my mom, and then my mom will tell my aunt, and my aunt my other sister, which will take away my privilage of having to think by myself. Im not going to write more ONE because my finger hurt...and TWO b/c im taking away precious time from your busy life...im a lamo i know...sorry. By the way, I CANT WAIT TIL THURSDAYYYY! WOOT WOOT!

Get away...or? Youll burn in flames!

I have eyes. I have my moms eyes. I have slighly open door eyes. Yeshh, I do. Theyre brown...but when people ask me what color they are...I say black. Black like my hair, like the earings of my mom, like the eyes of an eagle. Im a eagle. No... not an eagle. IM A DRAGON. Yes! A dragonnn....someday i will hatch and burn your insides with my words. Youll kneel at my presence and plead for forgiveness...i will think about it for two minutes and then ill melt your face off! BWAAA HAAAA HAAA! HAA HAA! [Dr. Evil laugh...] yes...i like feeling strong...especially those times when the math book is tooo heavy for my arms to bear. I hate it when i show my muscles and and my friends laugh. Well...thats it...thats all i wanted to say for today...now this little green dragon will go away and eat tofu.

To: You know who

Yesterday...the day seem so perfect and happy and just everything was right and everything went right...i had it everything...in a couple of insignificant hours my existence found a reason to smile but....Today...my hearts dead...the music stopped...the sun didnt came out...my life just stinksss...Likeee when your dresss ripss...your glasses brake...somebody dumps you...and your hair gets frizzy. Actually none of those things happened to me...but then why do i feel like this??? why? I hate being 14...i dont know anything...im confused...constantly and nobody understands me....nobody even tries to. My tongue feels sour... like spoiled milk. IDK why. The dance is coming...the picnic...the tripss...the fun...and i feel numb...like evrything is passing in front of my eyes and i cant touch it...i cant even reach it. I hate feeling like this...i sound like a bratt that all i do is whine and complain all day...i might be a bratt. I found this song that cheered me up a little so here it goes for all you outthere that are having a similr day...=]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XUBaXuKTzvw&feature=player_embedded

The green worm inside me

Today I feel awfully tyred. Don't know what causes this feeling. Might be the fact that I couldn't sleep all night, or the thought of being free for two months and 1/2. Maybe its the little brain worm inside my brain knocking my ears and eyes. Maybe its green and has two large eyes, moon eyes in fact. Whatever it was, today my head was glued to my desk, all day. My friends thought I was fainting in lunch... in fact I kind of was... My head at least. It was yelling at me, commanding me to stop, and find the nearest bench so that I could curl up and rest. I seriously need to find a way to sleep and not think. I once tried that "trick" some people call, the one when you count and keep counting and then POOF! you are dreaming with angels. The case was different with me, it didn't work so well, I was still looking at the wall when I was past two hundred and sixty five. I also tried reading a book which didn't work so... I loved the book so much I read 'til I finished it...and it was a pretty long night. I think Ive tried everything... including the usual glass of milk, which woke me up to go to the bathroom at three in the morning... I think I have Immsonia.

Excuse me, How Under?

I'm really mad right now! One word describes it all... SHORT! I hate being so short, I hate being confused! Today... After gym, the gym teacher told all the girls to go to the nurse because they were going to measure us. I mean height and weight. I wasn't scared at all... I mean I was hoping to be at least five feet tall... My best friend Jenn weights 94 pounds but is 5''1 and she's 13, and so does my other friend, but she weights a little bit more. So... my turn came and the lady told me... You weight 91 pounds and you are under FIVE! and then I was like... excuse me? Under Five? How under? You are like you are 98 (centimeters or inches i cant remember what she said) Last time I went to the doctor (January) the lady said 4''6.... weird... because in seventh grade I was 4''11 so I think the lady at the hospital was blind...or did I shrink? I dunno, when I go to the grocery store, there's always I measuring tape thingy and it says 5 feet most of the time! I'm really confused. I want to grow! I'm one of the shortest girls in eight grade! I'm wondering if someday I will receive a growth spurt or something. Both my parents are short but no as short as me! Sorry about my worthless rant... I just need it to write about it...I guess

The thing with the feathers

I like things. Things with feathers. I like two things with feathers. The first one is an inspiring poem by Emily Dickson, and the other one is a pair really cute earings I bought at a tag sale. Somehow, walking by all the antiques and worn shoes, my eye caught this treasure, so fluttery and mischievous it winked at me, it was enought to take two dollars out of my pocket, and hand them to a lady wearing 80's leggings nd a oversized v-neck gym shirt. I looked at the palm of my hand and... there they were glowing at the sight of the day. Enough to make me happy, at least for a day. Enough talk talk...So here is the poemthat inspierd my short term happyness:




Hope" is the thing with feathers


"Hope" is the thing with feathers—

That perches in the soul—

And sings the tune without the words—

And never stops—at all—

And sweetest—in the Gale—is heard—

And sore must be the storm—

That could abash the little BirdThat kept so many warm—

I've heard it in the chillest land—

And on the strangest Sea—

Yet, never, in Extremity,

It asked a crumb—of Me



Emily Dickinson

Lullabies on top of the microwave

That was actually the title of a new poem I wrote. I havent posted in a lonnnngg time... I dont know why. Things have been UP and DOWN... I guess.

Good UP's

1. I won first place in the C.O.L.T poetry recital contest!
2. I have new pieces...
3. I helped decorate a cafe!
4. I finally saving some money...
5. I've become a better friend
6. Im not afraid to stand up and talk in public...at least not anymore
7. Aveeno peach scrub is doing wonders on my skin!
8. Good Bye splitends!
9. I got three easter eggs today! oh! and one rolly rancher!
10. I enjoy every sip of poetry

Bad DOWN's

1. I get really depressed sometimes...
2. I ate all the cookie dough ice cream
3. My friend grew... I didnt..
4. I laugh funny... people have told me
5. I wish I had a magic lamp
6. Mr. D makes third period miserable
7. I wish Michael could stop saying my name funny
8. I got a shot yesterday


Seems more UP's than DOWN's... By the Way, Aaron (writing arist/poet/playwrite/awesome guy/role model/Ms.Whitaker should marry him guy) told me I should keep writing! he said my poem was awesome... I told him I was too scared to be a "starving artist". He laughed and said I didnt have to be a writer, and that writing helps with most career's. All I thought was "I wonder if paper tastes funny...or if someday I would eat paper". I certainly hope I dont get there.

From...
Avalanche

this poem waits for you to cross over
to cross over the heartbeat touch of your healing
hands, touching hands, touching hearts
this poem waits for you to cross over
to cross over love, this poem waits for you
to cross over, to cross over love
this poem waits for you to crossover
too crossover, too, love



QUINCY TROUPE

Inside My Shell

Sometimes I wish I was a turle. I would look like a nervous female ornate box turtle. If had a shell I would paint it! Make it really comfortable but taping extra plush toilet paper on the corners and making a cotton bed. I would be the coolest turtle ever, with comfy, rainbow painted shell! Ha! My life would be so awesome... Well, now I really sound like a wacko person. But dont you think having a shell would be cool?

New Set Of Feelings
By Winy

I want a new set of feelings
Imperialism, destruction
Mixed with Despair

I want love and hate
Peace and fuss
I want a new set of feelings
those nobody has

My heart will pound
My brain will swirl
'til my seriousness dies
'til self -goverment surprises
'til apathy appraises?

Tyred of simple apathetic first grade vocabulary

Want exotic feelings
that will fill me rage
Yet, calmness

I want anew set of feelings
Because new means better
Like stamp means letter

I want to feel the air my lungs
The thoughts in my head
A pin on a thread
I want a new set of tales

Take A Peek
By Winy

Sometimes I wonder if its all worth it
I take a peek out of and see what everyone sees

Then I try to go back and…not there anymore
I look and look as if it would pop out of somewhere
Naked and bare for my eyes to see it
But then the usual answer comes around
The one that itches my brain
Always there rubbing my memories together
Assaulting my thoughts
Forcing me to forget the apathy I used to have
Depression then comes around, wrapping me in sorrows

I want to be what everyone sees
Too bad my memory is blind
Closed and invisible

Haiku- Is a form of Japanese Poetry, consisting of 17 morae,in three metrical phrases of 5, 7 and 5 morae respectively. In Japanese, haiku are traditionally printed in a single vertical line, while haiku in english usually appear in three lines, to parallel the three metrical phrases of Japanese haiku. - Wikipedia

So, this week I have been learning about haiku(s), in my writing class. Which in fact I love and its the only thing that makes me smile at school. Ms.Whitaker, my writing teacher has been teaching us to write daily haiku(s), which I find very interesting. Haiku(s) are like little tiny poems that make you reflect life, it consists of three line, the first one has to be five syllables, the second one seven, and the last one five. Today I decided to share a haiku, which isn't very good, but I tried! Also, notice its not a perfect haiku with 5-7-5. But life's not perfect and neither is my writing.

Just One

By Winy

Thousand words to say

One word that conveys

All I need is philia

The Queen

By Pablo Neruda (translated by Anna Öberg)

I have appointed you Queen.

There are those more slender than you, more slender.

There are those purer than you, purer.

There are those fairer than you, fairer.

But you are Queen.

As you walk the streets

Nobody recognizes you.

Nobody sees your crown of crystal,

nobody notices

The red and gold carpet

You tread wherever you go,

The carpet that does not exist.

And when you appear

All the rivers

Of my body ripple, bells

Make the skies tremble

And a song of praise fills the world.

Only you and I,

Only you and I, my love

Can hear it.

Happy Valentine's Day

I really really hope everyone enjoys this very special day. I found great pictures that I hope will make you smile a bit if you're feeling gloomy. Im not doing anything special today...just pondering and enjoy a free guilt weekend, eating hersheys kisses and drinking hot cocoa. I had a pink cupcake with pink sugar yesterday, too bad I ate it! OK. No more words, I feel like a chatterbox!

"Our bodies know they belong;

it is our minds that

make our lives so homeless"

-John O' Donohoue

Yep. I dont belong anywhere. There I was all excited and full of energy to start. Then, she says "Just watch until I figure something out", "ok" I answered in small voice that almost sounded as a whisper. After one freaking hour... Im still there. Waiting. Feeling horribly humiliated and emberrased. Failure. Thats what I am. I dont belong anywhere. Just when I was ready to start again. Crack! somebody stomps on my intentions. No... I thought I belonged...I thought I was part of something... I thought I found my place. Wake up! my mind says, "you never belonged anywhere! never! remember sixth grade? remember first grade? Oh~! remember eveyrone that broke you heart! Dont repeat the same story again!" And here I am. Tears falling down my cheeks. Thinking how did the fudge did I agree to do this?! Im not coming back. I cant take it. Why does every time I tried to be part of something I get rrejected? Why do I feel rejected? Why does the story keep reapeting again and again?! Why do I feel like a complete failure?!

Just around the corner

Everything is just around the corner. This week Im pretty busy and basically just enjoying life. I have lots of pretty big things comming and hope they all go alright and as planned, dont want big surprises to pop out of nowhere! This is basically all Im writing today... Everything's around the corner, but not my inspiration. I dont know where it all went.

It's always way too early to quit

Things happen. Why do they happen? I do not know.

One thing I know...iwillbedancingonschoolstageonacoupleofweeks! O.K here's the thing...Im like the shyiest person in the whole wide world, so that means, well you all get the picture. Dont ask me how it happened or why im dancing. It just did. Im not going to back off and quit. I might be shy, but Im not a quitter! Yes, Im not a quitter. I have no reason to quit, no reason to do that to myself. Life is short, and Im going to enjoy it. It might be the most embarrasing memory I will have,but someday I will wake up and laugh about it. Someday hopefully.

I have noticed this blog is very boring...Weell, its not like people read this. I basically made this so that I can write stuff for myself. But...since I like photography...I want change. Im getting a camera in about a month! Yes, a month. Sad, I wish I could have it my little picky fingers right know,but cant do anything to change my destiny! Anyways, here are more facts about My-future-camera:


*I'ts a gift from my sister

*It's the best thing that has happened to me since the white wedges I bougth last summer

*It's not small... in fact its kind of big...Big stand fo beautiful

*It uses batteries, not chargeable

*It's like from 2004 or 2000 something...but you know numbers dont matter

*It is gray like the sky before it wakes up

Why

am I never enough? Why is there more to it? Why am I the only one? Why does nobody care? Why Im not right for it? Why do I they feel this way? Why do I feel this way? Why is life never pretty pink? Why cant I change? Why cant I be air? Why?

Sunday means Church

Yes, Sunday means Church. I have taken a decision, to try to get a closer look of God. Nobody probably knows this, but I have been avoiding church for a long time now. I can remember when I was eight years old and waking up every sunday with a huge smile on face, because I then knew that Sunday meant Church. I loved waking up every sunday morning, getting my scriptures ready, wearing mmy favorite red dress to church. I felt confort, relaxation, and peace; I felt a connection with God. I loved staying after the sacrament to sing with the other kids, to talk with my friends, to run on the endless hallways of that saint place I called "Church". I missed that, yes I do miss that. In fact I want to get that feeling back, I want my soul in peace. From now on Im planning on going to church every sunday && staying after. Im planning on praying, going to mutual [whenever I can], and doing service. I want to be happy, not later, nooow. I know that I can find happyness by keeping God's commandments and doing service, because you truly feel joy and happyness when you do something for someone else, I know I do.This is a great picture I found on the internet, and Its a picture of the mormon Salt Lake City Temple in Utah. It is one of the most holy places I've been to and it just transmits joy and happyness, Dont you think??

Hellooo Suuunshine!

Sometimes I wonder why winter is so long? Stealing spring's time? Dont get me wrong, I do love winter and the relaxation and whiteness that comes with it. Those white sunny snowy mornings when that tree outside your yard looking like an angel assures you that God does exist, who else could've created such a whimsical view? Oh yes, I love those days, when a cup of hot cocoa means the world and when the streets stay silent, when perfection reaches its highest point and when people stop their busy lives to wonder why snow is so white, yet so especial. When nightime comes before sunlight, when a snowman is your best friend, when your fingers feel that itchy cold feeling, yet they feel warm and cool, when you see your breath trying to blend with the chilly air that hugs your hair. Yes, oh yes I love winter but today... today I missed Spring. Oh were are you Spring? Im here waiting for your arrival, wanting to take my bike out and ride for hours and hours with the warm, fresh air playing with my hair, I want to hear the birds singing, the leaves living, the flowers blooming, I want to hear you Spring. I miss drinking pink lemonade outside, planting apple seeds and just any seed I find weird looking. Spring, when are you coming? when can I see you? Cant wait for your magic to happen!

I found this great picture. Reminds me of Spring.

Do you remember when PLUTO was a planet?

Yeah...Those were days. Feeling really crappy, ashamed, sad, sad, and glommy, and did I mentioned sad? I dont want to sound like a whiner...but I just had a horrible day today. Everything feels like its getting out of control and I think control is the only thing that holds me from breaking into little tiny pieces. Ahhh! I feeling like crying...I couldnt go to my guidance consular, had like 10 million papercuts, had tostitos for breakfast, found out Im failing two classes, my science teacher hates me, lost my favorite chapstick, had too much junk food, missed the bus, nobody noticed my hair, my memoir didnt get saved, my advisory class sucked, and cant figure out which high school Im going to. I feel helpless.

Historic Day

Wowza! Today...dont even have words for it! One thing I know...CHANGE is coming.

Sore arms

Yesterday I went rock climbing...it wasnt ''real rock'' climbing, it was an artificial indoor gym where they had all sorts of stuff like moutntains,ropes, and stuff. I had lots of fun, althought I fell most of the time and freaked out a little. Ahhh... good times. The worst thing happened today.I woke up with horrible pain in my arms, as if somebody have been beaten me up all night. I had sore arms. Ha! I started laughing, it was sure funny, but still had the pain with me, althought it was totally worth it. The memories will always stay with me and the pain will go! I hope soon...

There's always a first time for everything

is what my mom always says. Ironically, it is true. The name's Winy. I am 14 years and three months young. This is my first post as a blogger, makes me very excited and cant wait to begin. Also, this is my first blog! Yesterday after having a nice cup of butter pecan ice cream and two hours of bloghopping, I decided to create a blog to share little moments of my life with other people with the same interests [nothing in particular]. With all of that being said, I welcome you to my blog and hope you find it interesting.